Friend or foe

This week's lesson: I can be both my best friend and my worst enemy

on habits and memories

I have been attending an online seminary on forgiveness, something I have kept bumping into for ages and finally decided to give it a try. The problem is, it took me almost half a year to take up the courage and go to lesson 2 :) But I did, and I've been noticing the chain reaction this has triggered inside of me, quite interesting. But what I really wanted to bring up today was an idea I came across in the answer I received after my homework was submitted; the fact that our body has "cellular memories" which, even though events are long passed, remain encripted in us and resurface in certain critical moments, often to our disadvantage.

The oddness of this struck me at first, but then once it settled inside, I began to notice certain patterns of behaviour in my past and present. Things I would not want to do but ended up doing, later explaining them to myself as mometary blindness...How everything makes a perfect picture now! It seems so simple but so terribly true: every action of ours leaves a print in our body and whole being, the more frequent it is repeated the faster it turns into and "inner written" habit. It's like programming a computer.

Funny to think our actions in the present build up a subconscious future response to similar cirumstances. To think of it, I've grown up with the saying "One who steals an egg today is certain to steal an ox tomorrow" . But never quite really got it till today. The same goes for Exupery's baobabs, isn't it? Make sure you pluck out the ad seeds on time or else their strong grown roots will destroy your planet. Oh, and how deceiving baobab sprouts are, how similar they can be to rose ones! How then can you tell them apart?

Here, the Little Prince can be extremely helpful:
<<“It is a question of discipline,” the little prince said to me later on. “When
you’ve finished your own toilet in the morning, then it is time to attend to the
toilet of your planet, just so, with the greatest care. You must see to it that
you pull up regularly all the baobabs, at the very first moment when they can
be distinguished from the rosebushes which they resemble so closely in their
earliest youth. It is very tedious work,” the little prince added, “but very easy.”>>

Discipline...and awareness I guess... but nothing could be more difficult for me :)

So I designed a personlized battle plan(Low on discipline and great with making plans, that's me! :D): I'll start making up good habits in the hope bad ones will be replaced :)

What do you think?

Returning...

It's been quite a long time, but the Universe brought me back :)

Hope my cutting honesty mood will return, seems it has been hibernating till now. This is to show how rare moments like this are...for a normal person, that is. Looks like I'll be a perpetual tadpole with a slow (at times reversing) process of growth. Why does it take so long for people to learn a lesson? To think about it, the Universe has been soooo patient with me and still there are times (quite many) when I prefer the slumber of habit and turn a blind eye on the lessons I've been taught...and the first one to suffer from it is me...who can understand this???

A quick glance back in time...since my last post I went through a very difficult period of my life, which led to my taking up knitting (helps keeping sane) but most importantly I learnt the most important lesson for me so far: doing the right thing often hurts and on top of all we are NOT capable of it on our own (it's soooo much simpler and hassle free to take the easy way out). Nonetheless, all the energy of the Universe seems to get triggered when we try to do the right thing, or even just want to and admit to not being able to...then something almost magic happens, something changes inside and you become able to do make the right choice and embrace it...it's like the Universe works from inside you rewarding your little effort of will.

sooooo today's little conclusion: "Do your best...and the Universe will do the rest" :D

try it if you can!!! it's a challenge

PS still awful with communication